Today is 9th of October, 2016 and time is 11:30pm. I am lying on my bed this Sunday night feeling tired, very very tired. My tiredness is borne out of the various activities I had engaged myself in. I sat on my chair, computer on table with my eyes fixed to the computer screen. I had been on this for long hours now. I only got up when I needed to cook, brush, have my bath and then I continued the act.
This feeling of fatigue! For the greater part of the
last three months, this has been my routine. I remember having body aches
sometime as a result. I had to visit the hospital for that but on this fateful
night, I learnt my lesson.
I cannot even believe I’m writing this. I tell you, I’m
feeling so tired! I've been feeling dizzy, like…I’d fall to the ground and
then…Halfway to writing this, I was called to join the rest of the family for
our daily evening prayers. During the course of our prayer meeting, ‘Nepa’ took
light. I’m back to my room feeling even worse but I've made up my mind to put
down my thoughts and emotions in writing. I believe this would help.
I realize I have been very busy, so engrossed with
life, the activities and hustles therein, trying to make ends meet and remain
alive. This has been going on for as long as I remember but today, I feel
caught in a web. A web of anger and confusion. Anger coz I’m like, why does the common man (like me)
in the society need to work out his head to survive when the rich keeps getting
richer, are on top and living large
without struggling much? Confused because I keep wondering, if I die today, the
world would keep moving, right? And all my toils, all that I've worked very
hard for with sleepless nights and gained just enough feeling of fatigue to
keep me bored for the rest of the times. Where will all that go and what will I
stand to gain in the end?
Please do not mind my use of words or word structure.
Do my subject and verb agree? Are my tenses right? Do not bother going into all
that now coz I do not really care. I’m just tired tonight! So many things are
wrong with my country. Bad leadership is top on the list. Our leaders have
failed us. They consistently use us and then dump us. We give them our votes
and loyalty because we believe in them but when they get there what do they do?
They represent their pockets! What happens to us? We become victims…we get broken.
I got to the sitting room to watch the news on TV only to see the Edo governorship
elections and the arrest of the judges making major headlines but I’m not ready
to voice my opinion about that yet. All I see here is corruption and injustice
at its peak. Do I talk about killings and bombings, abductions, incessant armed
robbery attacks, the herdsmen saga and most importantly the recession?
Now, back to my predicaments. What would happen if I
fell ill or even died? The answer is simple, ‘life continues’. The earth and the people therein would still
remain so I have learnt to take a break. Yes! I have learnt to take a chill
pill. I've realized tonight like never before that rest from labor, strong
interpersonal relationships and our relationship with God are the basic things
we need to survive and stay happy. So, I urge you dear reader as I urge myself
to rest. Rest is very essential to human living.
You have heard it before, you know it and so do I that
there is joy when work is done but I tell you, there’s greater joy when work is
done and there’s life, joy and hope of a brighter future. Why toil and still
you have no joy? There is joy when you are happy and also a source of happiness
to your family, next door neighbor, friends and others in need of your smiles,
kind words and help. I have learnt to appreciate myself for all my
accomplishments, to love myself as this naturally transmits to every other
person I come in contact with. #Lesson… Give yourself a nice treat always and
rest in whatever way you know. Taking adequate sleep is important too. To live
and not just to exist, we must rest and refresh.
I feel much better now. This (writing, communing with
my diary) is also my way of resting. I thought to share this one. Stay blessed!
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